The second step of Reflective Progression is Reflection. Writing is the best method to use when recording your process of reflection. And remember this is a process. So choose your own method of who you feel you should meet again, the places you should visit and areas of your past you want to focus on. Here’s how I outlined my process in the book, Getting Lost is Part of the Journey.
I’ve got to dig deep into the head of
the protagonist, researching and interviewing the other
characters in his life, revisiting some of the places he’s
been. This book is the story of me. A story of a process, a
journey into the past. And on this journey I am going to meet
up with former colleagues, friends, even people that never
liked me but were all there at important moments in my life.
And something will happen when writing this book that always
happen when I write: I will lose myself in the writing. And
when I am completely lost, I’ll send what I’ve written to the
two people I always trust in this situation. Because on this
journey of self-discovery I will need some feedback in order
to understand and develop my thoughts. This will be the story
of my whole life. And in getting lost in the writing I intend
to find my way again because Getting Lost Is Part Of The
I wrote a list of possible interview partners from my past but keep my mind open in order to be able to change that list and react to my writing. But it was in the end the writing that led my choices. I wrote stories about my past and analysed them. I asked two trusted colleagues, people who had in the past offered critical examination of my scripts, to react to what I was writing. To offer interpretations and ideas of the importance of what I had written. I opened myself up which is sometimes a painfully honest process. This was the only way that I knew I could come to a result that would be effective. And if key themes or words came up I acknowledged their importance and pinned them to my wall. To give you a specific example of how this works here’s an example from the book again when I meet a former colleague at MTV, Bea.
The Nordic countries also became a regular destination. I
went on many of these trips with Bea. In Iceland we
interviewed Bjoerk of the then Sugarcubes and featured other
bands. Another interview was conducted literally in the arms
of the world’s strongest man, who held me up high while I
talked to him. The isolation of Iceland makes it special. Two
thirds of the population live in Rejkjavik. And it’s a
culturally interesting country. At the time Iceland had more
authors per capita than any other country in the world. There
are film directors, video artists and of course musicians.
Iceland had and still has a vibrant music scene, particularly
electronic and independent music. The success of The
Sugarcubes and Bjoerk as a solo artist inspired others. I
hope that we at MTV also played a role in their success.
Stockholm in Sweden was also a regular venue for MTV News.
Neneh Cherry, Roxette, Army of Lovers, Ace of Base, Papa Dee,
Rob n Roz and Leila K all became regulars on MTV. Meeting La
Camilla of Army of Lovers was my highlight. She’s a
wonderful, slightly eccentric, beautiful woman. For many
years we remained friends, holidaying together in Greece. One
time I had the privilege of interviewing the men behind
Sweden’s biggest selling band Abba. Benny and Bjoern had a
studio in central Stockholm. They were impressive. They had
remained unassuming despite the fact that they had written
some of the catchiest pop tunes since the 1970’s. But what
impressed me most that day was the roof on their studio. At a
touch of a button it opened up letting the summer sunlight
Bea reminds me of another time in Stockholm. We had been
filming in the day and in the evening we had been invited to
the opening of a new club. As the taxi pulled up there were
hordes of people outside. When they saw us they just stared
and the crowd parted. This is what Bea means when she says
that I was like a cat being stroked. When we entered the club
we stood at the bar and a circle formed around us. People
just gawked. This adoration made me feel I existed.
Sam had been right with his analysis of my main character. I
did question whether I was alive. “TV was your way of
existing”, said Bea. At that time it was true.
TV as a way of existing was a powerful statement from Bea that resonated with me. It was painful to contemplate this. And this was a phrase that I knew had to go on my wall. I had reflected on my life and through that process found out something else that I hadn’t known before.
This was part of the second stage of RP, I still had to go through the most difficult stage, Change.